Tuesday, September 30, 2008

In The Doldrums

Things at work since I went back after my op have been getting steadily worse again and this last week I've spent a lot of the time near to or in tears, and taken to having early nights as all I want to do is hide away and sleep, which I know for me is a sure sign I'm depressed again.
There were more redundancies at work last week and everyday we seem to hear more doom and gloom about the housing market etc, so everyone I work with is at rock bottom and the atmosphere is awful. I think my job is probably safe for a while due to my length of service, experience and qualifications, but dealing with the atmosphere on a daily basis is getting hard to bear. When you spend so much of your life at work it becomes impossible to turn off after work when things are so low whilst you're there and I have to admit that I'm really struggling. I'm trying to take it one day at a time but earlier today I was so close to handing in my notice and just throwing in the towel...
I have had one nice day though. At the weekend DH and I took Erin to Gulliver's World in Warrington which is a theme park for young children. Erin absolutely loves it there as she can go on the rides as many time as she wants. This time she was also tall enough to go on the three rides she's missed out on before, a roller coaster, a runaway mine train and the log flume, and loved them, especially when I got soaked through on the log flume lol. We had an absolutely wonderful day, the weather was gorgeous, the queues were short for the rides surprisingly and it was just so nice relaxing and being a family with no worries for a while. DH and I said we definitely need to get away for more days like that, as I felt like a weight had been lifted off me for a few hours.
Stitching wise I've nothing to show I'm afraid. I have done the stitching for the Just Nan Boo Tin, but have yet to pluck up the courage to attempt the finishing. I've done none besides that and to be honest the rotation has fallen by the wayside, so I've decided for now that when I do actually feel like stitching I'm just going to grab what's calling and see how it goes. It's typical that when I'm stressed or down I usually turn to my stitching, but at the moment I can't even be bothered with that.
Here's hoping I'll snap out of it in a few days.

7 comments:

Sally said...

I think we have to try and not worry about the worldwide situation, make the best of it and hope there'll be an upturn soon. It's not easy and I must admit that with the way some of the banks and bs's are going it's crossed my mind once or twice that if our moratgage company goes under we could lose the house but I soon put it to the back of my mind or I'd just go mad.

Karan said...

So sorry you're feeling so low. Sending lots of positive thoughts & (((((hugs))))) your way - hope things pick up for you soon.

jane said...

Hope things pick up for you soon Lisa - I know what it's like when the work situation gets so overwhelming that you are thinking about it in all your free time as well. I agree with Sally , we just have to try and not worry, whatever is going to happen will happen anyway and hopefully things will not be as bad as feared.
Sounds like you had a good day out, we used to love Gulliver's World when our DDs were small.

Claire said...

Head up keep smiling - but know where you are coming from as off work on sick at the moment I think due to stresses at work....

BTW - please note new blog!

Lots of love and hugs
Claire
X

Elisa said...

Sorry to hear that you are not on top form...sending you
{{{{big hugs}}}}...I don't think the dark nights and mornings help though...hope next week is better for you

Hazel said...

Awww Lisa. Sorry for you and sending big hugs. xx

stitchinfiend said...

Lisa here are some ((huggs))
I hope that you are feeling a little better.