Friday, July 4, 2008

I'm Scared!

After a long time of getting very ill on and off I finally found out in April that I have gallstones. I've been waiting for a date for the op and today found out it will be on the 25th July. Only 3 weeks away. I've only ever been in hospital when I had Erin 5 years ago and it wasn't a good experience shall we say, and I've never had an anaesthetic or operation. I'm an absolute wreck and feel sick and shaky now, so god knows what state I'll be in by the op date.
It's also come at a very bad time work wise as my boss goes on holiday the week after and I was supposed to be running the office for 2 weeks, but obviously now that isn't going to happen and the big bosses are not at all happy. Add to that the housing market which I work in is very bad at the moment and our jobs are all at risk. I'm scared that I will have no job to go back to.....
I know I have no choice about the operation as each time I get a flare up it is worse than the last (on Sunday night and Monday I thought I was going to have to go to the emergency department), and if I refuse this date I'll have to go back on the waiting list, but it just couldn't come at a worse time and I feel really stressed.
Up til getting this date I was thinking, ooh, 2/3 weeks off work afterwards, loads of stitching time, naps and watching chick flicks. I need to start chanting that or I'm going to go mad in the next 3 weeks!

6 comments:

Anita said...

So sorry to hear about your situation. I know it is hard not to worry with this economy. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayer. There is something in life that is out of our control, hope everything will be OK. Try not to worry too much, and just do your best.

Jennifer said...

Like Anita said, try not to worry too much. You need to have the surgery done, and I've usually found that things like this SEEM much worse than they end up being. Just try to relax and be calm and do your best.

Sally said...

I think you should forget about work and think about yourself for a change Lisa. Sorry to be blunt but worrying will not help you. You need this op. Try not to worry about the op in itself either. Before you know it it will all be over with.

Lynn said...

I know the thought of an op is scary (I've had 10!) but just think of the painfree life you'll have afterwards. I've found that taking really deep breaths helps with the panic and remember, they'd done hundreds of these ops before, so your in good hands ((((hugs))))

my thoughts and prayers will be with you x

Stitcher said...

Hugs to you. I'm sure it will be nowhere near as bad as you imagine. And from what I understand you will feel loads better afterwards. Will it be done by keyhole?

Hazel said...

Sorry to hear this Lisa. My dh had them a few years ago and he was in excrutiating pain. Going and having them out is the best thing you can do. Try not to think about it. xx